Life is one messed-up business

Do you ever get the feeling…no, it’s more than just a feeling, it’s almost a “knowing” or “gut instinct” about something?   You keep trying to pursue certain paths in your life that just doesn’t quite “click,” but you’re not ready to admit to this so you keep fighting against this “knowing,” keep pushing down these same paths and whenever you meet minimal success, you somehow don’t feel completely content or fulfilled.  That inner nagging is always there, telling you that these paths are not the right ones for you; but, you don’t want to listen.  You want to do what you “want” to do, not because of some inner voice from an unseen place is telling you to.  Over time, you begin to notice that the harder you fight against this “knowing” the more unsettled you begin to feel.  You start to doubt your place in this world, your unique purpose in this life (whatever that may be).  Misery and doubt begin to plague your every waking moment. You grow weary of the “whispers” that constantly follow you everywhere.

So, should I believe in destiny and fate then?  Should I give in to these inner voices and go where they tell me to go?  Would I then finally find lasting peace knowing that I’m doing what I was born to do?

Shouldn’t I be able to choose rather than have it chosen for me?

Am I really making any sense here?

Life is such a messed-up business.

 

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2 thoughts on “Life is one messed-up business

  1. I think the inner voice is a gift – at least it is for me. For many, many years I suppressed it. Perhaps another way of doing this is to have a conversation with that “voice.” Ask the voice what it wants to teach you. I discovered my intuitive voice through writing song lyrics. It was actually a song that pointed me in the direction to end my marriage. As humans, change is scary and sometimes we stick with what is familiar because it is safe. That voice might be suggesting other options to you that you’re not ready for. I like what you wrote because it truly is thought provoking!

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